It’s the morning of Day 5 AF. I don’t usually post in the mornings because how can you call yourself quit drinking for 5 days when day 5 has JUST BEGUN? I didn’t post yesterday & I am waiting on traffic to die down before I go to work (so I have time to kill) & I feel reasonably confident I will make it through this 5th sober day so I am leaping out into the blog-o-sphere with a morning post.
The first first time I quit drinking, a few years ago, I remember going to dinner with the hubs, the kid, and friend of kid. Hubs had wine at dinner. I was so jealous. So bitter in my perusal of the menu to find a replacement, treat beverage. I ordered some sickly sweet coffee thing that was wholly unsatisfying. Last night, hubs and I went out to dinner and then to a concert. I had a lovely cup of tea at dinner. I used honey (which I usually avoid because it does not make the tea sweet enough for my tastes). It was really yummy. Hubs had some drink in a copper cup, never a draw to me so no worries there. There was beer at the concert, lots of it, and hubs had some. I didn’t have anything and didn’t really miss it.
The difference is I feel better AF and very much appreciate feeling better. Maybe this is just a factor of aging. I don’t want to wake up in the middle of the night & if I drink, I will. I don’t want to have to pee, need lots of water, and have a racing mind at 2:00 a.m. All of that inevitably happens when I drink. I like waking up feeling refreshed and showing up at work non-bleary eyed, non-stuffy, non-headachy. It’s different this time because I appreciate the positives of sobriety more than I miss the drinking. And when I think about missing the drinking, I think about what it will cost me to drink. Plus, staying quit is easier than starting to be quit. I don’t know why it is hard to get up the nerve to have a Day 1. It is though. I’m going to try to hang on to this one.
I am so glad you’re hanging in there! And you are right — “Staying quit is easier than starting to be quit.” It would take me so long to get up the momentum to start again after giving in to the wine witch. And drinking is soooooo aging! It’s amazing how many symptoms of aging were actually symptoms of alcohol overload.
And I LOVE sleeping like a baby. ; )
Congrats on Day 5!
xoxo
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Thank you! How long are you AF sobermiracle? I can aspire to emulate! C
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